Past, Present and Future, Not Tense.

I am not sure how to put this. But I felt the best word is "Interesting".

It's interesting on how your history can haunt you back. and this time I am stronger and definitely wiser.

I never thought my history would come looking for me back. In a form that the past wanted to be a part of the present.

While I was surprise at the beginning, but then I am more curious of wanting to know on what had happen on the past.

And I got my answer.

And I am very much happy with the answer.

But sorry. the present is not for you Past. its simply not how the storyline was made.

till then, see you somewhere in the future with our separated storyline.

-Farhana-

Isnin

Penat.

Kata lawan bagi penat ialah shopping. 

The Kick

Betul cakap ibu-ibu. Pregnancy itu satu pengalaman yang sangat indah. 

Hari ni baby x kick sangat. Risau. 

Tapi tadi, masa solat, mengaji, baby kick, kuat. Tersentuh sangat hati keibuan.

Rasa besarnya kuasa Allah. Besarnya Rahmat Allah. 

Sehina-hina hamba-Nya ini, Dia masih ingat pada aku, untuk merasai Rahmat kurniaan Dia. 

Terus rebah, sujud aku kepada Dia tanda syukur. Syukur sangat. 

Dan atas dasar supaya aku sentiasa sedar, banyak rahmat Dia yang telah Dia beri, aku coretkan di sini, di alam maya ini.

Semoga anak ini, amanah Dia ini, menjadikan aku lebih dekat kepada Dia yang Esa.

Amin. 

Azam Terbaru

Nak jadi isteri mithali. Di samping menjadi anak mithali. Dan hamba yang patuh pada suruhan Rasul-Nya. 

Nak tutup aurat selengkapnya.

Nak teguhkan iman supaya tidak mudah goyah dengan godaan dunia. 

Nak jadi muslimah sejati. 

Nak contohi Aisyah r.a dan Fatimah Azzahra r.a. 

Semoga Allah merahmati niat suci ini dan perkenan doa ni.

Semoga Allah swt dekatkan aku dengan org yg boleh menjayakan azam ini.

Syukur dengan nikmat yang diberi buat masa ini.

Amin. 

Sepuluh

10 days from now I will become someone's wife.

10 days from now I will share my current life with someone else.

10 days from now, my future will be drawn with a life partner in it.

10 days from now, my dad's responsibility on me will be handed over to another man. 

10 days from now, its a new level of life sharing for me.

10 days from now, all the worries will be over.

Only 10 more days.

We will be together.

InsyaAllah.

Doakan semua urusan dipermudahkan. 

Amin

Cerita Hati

Alhamdulillah. Life has been good to me.

Cuak, sebab sedar diri ni banyak dosa.

Tapi Allah tetap berikan pelbagai nikmat.

Jujur aku takut.

Semoga aku mati sebagai seorang Husnul Khatimah. 

Amin.

In Love

Reminder untuk diri sendiri.

Banyakkan lagi beribadah. 

Teruskan usaha menjadi wanita solehah.

Pertingkatkan doa. 

Terus dekatkan diri kepada Allah.

Sebab, whatever that you have right now is because of Allah, Farhana.

Bahagia itu juga milik Allah.

Jangan lalai.

Jangan alpa.

InsyaAllah, bahagia itu sampai syurga.

Ingat. Ingat. Ingat. Dan buat.

InsyaAllah.

Alhamdulillah.

Umi No.1 Di Dunia

Umi. 

Aku kurang bercerita tentang umi saya. 

Sedangkan, seperti arwah mama yang hebat, Umi juga seorang wanita yang sangat hebat. Kalau tak, masakan dia terpilih untuk jadi Umi aku. Umi kami.

Umi sayangkan Adam, macam anak sendiri. Bagi Adam, Umi lah mak. Kasih sayang Umi pada Adam tak berbelah bahagi. Langsung tidak. Aku yakin. 

Umi tak pernah marah.

Umi tidak pernah naik suara pun.

Umi tidak pernah putus asa.

Umi tidak pernah membezakan kami.

Umi tidak pernah mengabaikan kami.

Umi tidak pernah buat kami seperti kehilangan seorang ibu. 

Umi adalah wanita hebat.

Ya, umi is the closest thing to mama.

Tapi Umi bukan Mama.

Cuma mereka hebat dengan cara mereka.

Alhamdulillah aku dibesarkan dengan dua wanita hebat. 

May.

Its May.

1. My birthday.

Alhamdullillah. :)

Makanan kat Subak sedap sangat. The view, environment and environment pn best. Tp banyak nyamuk. Hehehe. Siap kene pasang ubat nyamuk. Nature bebenor gamak nye.. 

2. New car

Alhamdulillah. 

Kereta ni best gila cool awesome hi-tech sporty handling terbaik and everything you could ask for. Seriously! 

Plg jakun bila dia parking sendiri. Hakhakhak. 

Syukur. Syukur sangat.

Mari berkerja dengan lebih tekun.

Mari menjadi muslimah yang lebih baik.

Ya Allah, Jauhkan la sifat-sifat mazmumah dari aku, keluarga ku, dan keturunanku. 

Amin. 

Geo D' Pirates

Alhamdulillah, at last Geomatics Annual Dinner dah berakhir.

Alhamdulillah juga it went well.
Alhamdulillah dapat comittee members yang best. Seriously. They are the best, seriously and honestly the best.

It was not easy when you were given the responsibilities as The Project Manager (PM).
I was not expecting at all that I will be appointed as The Annual Dinner Project Manager. It was definitely not an easy role to be played. Every project manager is expected to organize a better Annual Dinner than the previous one. Its even tough when our bosses just loveeeed theme party (kinky eyh?) haha. And The PM is usually chosen among the newest staff in the unit. So the tension is quite high because whether you like it or not, you will be judged. If its good, you will be remembered, if its bad, you'll also be remembered.

But thankfully, my comittee members are just awesome! They are beyond awesome. And alhamdulillah we are able to work and tolerate together and with each other especially to tolerate with my fussiness. Lol.

They have some issues and problem, such as the date has been postponed . It was supposed to be held in January, but due to for many reason, it has been postponed to March. And etc etc.

And I am also thankful and grateful to have someone who has always been besides me, supporting me, and of course, believing in me. Thank you so much my dear Captain Kamal Sparrow. I love you so much sayang.

Oh! Believe it or not, I won Best Dressed Award! I never aimed for the award, but i was thinking, if it wasn't me, The PM went all out, then who will?

Not to mention, i won lucky draw! I have never won a lucky draw in my life esp when not everyone will got a prize. Its a coffee maker you know!! Haha i am super duper excited!

Alhamdulillah alhamdulillah alhamdulillah.
Terima kasih Allah for everything that You gave me. Alhamdulillah.

Here some pics from my phone.

More to come from the Official Photographer.

table setup

Senior Manager

Colleague

Manager Saya

Compilation of pelbagai pangkat pirates.

tunggu orang balik baru amek gamba. malu yaww. :P

Hadiah Best Dressed. Sungguh, mak tak expect langsung. (ayat diva)

Ni lagi satu tak expect langsung. Excited gile dapat. Haruslah jakun. hehe

For The Greater Good

Sometimes we are too busy looking at the lives of others, we fail to realize how beautiful our own lives are. Alhamdulillah.




At last. its over.

Enough of the suffering.

Alhamdulillah.

Dia pun da move on.

I'm happy for him. 

Pedih, tp it's just a stage of adjustment period. 

As time goes, I will heal.

After all this is what I wanted.

I chose this path.

I had analyzed all the possible consequences that I have to face.

Its not that I did it solely based on emotion.

I did it because I believe this is the best solution.

I did it because I believe in faith.

I did it because I have put my trust on Allah. Tawakkal.

I know, hidden somewhere, there is also a rainbow prepared for me. It's just a matter of time.

Kalau niat baik, baik lah pengakhirannya.

I have found happiness in my work, or perhaps I may call as career? :P

Now, what is left is my love life. 

And the never ending effort to be muslimah sejati. :)

May I find the happiness that I seek for. Ameen.

Not just any ordinary Monday

So today was the first day. I might like it there. I'm even considering to make this as my career path.

InsyaAllah.

May all the strength be provided when I needed the most.

The environment seems to be healthy.
The mind setting seems to be how I've always imagined them to be.
The people seems friendly.

Well at least that is my first impression. And I hope it will stay that way.

And I am fragile. Please be kind to me.



Anyway, I know my english isn't that good, but hey, at least im trying.

Biar bertatih, jangan berundur.

:)

Friends, doakan saya jumpa kebahagiaan saya ya. Dunia dan akhirat. Saya doakan kamu juga.

Amin.





So now, should I or shouldn't i buy a new car? :P

What's up for 2012.

March - April : New Job.

May : PJDawn.

November: Melbourneeeee!!~

o0o0o0o. Now I Know.

Wordless Wednesday. January 2012